There I was drinking my Wine cocktail
When beside me what should I hear
A voice, I remembered, that of a male.
We were lovers for a number of years.
Hi, he said, looking at me with a frown.
Long time no see, Peter, I think!
He nodded, then quickly sat down
Saying could I join you for a drink
Well of course says I, haven’t seen you for years.
he replies, since you walked out on me
Left me lost, devastated, angry, in tears.
I thought we were happy, weren’t we?.
As if it were yesterday I remembered my past
And what led to me leaving this person
I was an outsider, a miserable outcast.
I needed a worthier version.
The world called to me from my sad little life
For I knew if I stayed I’d stagnate.
I was destined to become a boring young wife.
Filled with sadness, loathing, self-hate
I left him and found there’s a place I could be
Full of adventure and laughter and joy
I travelled around, I was happy and free
Never giving a thought to that boy.
Forty years on, I have no regret
I am back to where it began
There is one thing though, I cannot forget
Is the hurt that I caused this old man.
What should I say, what can I do
To ease the pain in his eyes
For all the hurt that I caused you
I wondered, do I need to apologise
No! I give him a nod, and finish my wine
Saying nothing more to this man
I walked out on him for a second time
Never wanting to see him again